On the day I was born spring was just a good idea. Not a tree had thought further then to catch a snowflake upon a branch. Mother Nature heaved tears upon a grateful earth that such a creature as me was being born. No, no that is not right. The sky was a slate gray of swollen cumulus clouds. No, that is not right either. I really do not know what the weather was the day I was born. I was too busy contemplating my penis. Yes, I was a girl but convinced the pulsating thing I had grown so fond of in vitro was indeed, my penis. How was I to know it would be the last time I would be so intimately involved with it and my kneecaps. Hanging out in the dark sucking your thumb and pondering the next tum in the womb does not prepare you for life. I was three or was it four when I stood naked waiting for my bath and realized it was gone. Gone!!! I asked my mother where it was and she said, why, it dried up and fell off. Fell off? My trusty companion for nine months, my playmate, the thing I was counting on to wield power in a man infested environment had dried up and fallen off? I tell you nothing prepares you for a shock like that.

Nor does it prepare you for 12 years of Catholic school and the joys of the twisted sisterhood of the religious righteous. My life from grades 1-12 was spent running from the taunts of bullies while hanging on to my socks that were always around my ankles and keeping my pointed speckled glasses from falling into the mud before I did. I was eighteen when I developed hips and could keep my pantyhose around my waist.

On the day I was born God peered into the waiting womb of my mother and shook his head to see this girl baby contemplating her penis. I think he knew right then and there I was trouble. Years later I would grow up to be a wild woman, a wild angel, and crazy about my pet TV, my computer and a boy named George, but that is another story.

I was born with a cleft in my chin. I was told that meant God had put his fingerprint on me. So this is what I think happened, God looked in utero, saw what was going on, and decided action was needed.

He lifted my head back peered into those baby blues and said; Look you goofball! What do you think you are doing? Stop mucking around and get the hell out there. With that, he pushed his finger into my chin and sent me holding on to my penis for dear life down that long tunnel to the light at the other end, his final words ringing in my ears. "You go, girl. Go and fly!!"


From the anthology: Things with Wings, 2001 The Wild Angels


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What women in love do, Haiku version



what
women in love
do: revealing bare shoulders
she
slips back her coat



From the anthology: Things with Wings, 2001 The Wild Angels
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What women in love do

(We) throw off our coats to reveal bare shoulders
(We) dance in front of the mirror, imagining our beloved is there
What women in love do

Become unhinged in subtle and profound ways 
(slightly crazy and beside ourselves)
We become different and awkward and out of sorts
When we fall (for married men, mysterious men and holy men)
Forgetting ourselves in the most awful and luscious of ways
Women in love do the most interesting things

Today I am a woman in love(and my heart aches)


F
rom the anthology: Things with Wings, 2001 The Wild Angels


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A death like this . . . .

One more time spring has erupted.

I pass by the trees and white petals fall.
A little boy says: "it is snowing momma! It's snowing..."

I kick at the trash and catch a petal on my lips.

The taste is bitter and I am full of it. A season comes around. It's spring, then fall.
Again, I walk down the street.
The tears fall like snow from the sky...
Things go round and round.

Some things stop. Stop.

His friend has died.

I sit with him and feel the heaviness of his heart. I am pulled down into it.  He weeps.

A flower tips it head to the ground. I know something is being born.

At this moment my heart flutters and falters. Somewhere my soul is being filled by the Gods. They said she died of heart attack.

I know her heart broke open,

so, full oflove it could no longer be contained.

A friend has died

and a death like this takes away a piece from here and a piece from there.

Until there is this patchwork of things that God has woven back together.

I walk down this street and all around everything has gone green ...

Next week it falls like feathers from angels' wings. I am wrapped by this cycle of life and death.

I am reaching and holding back.

I am looking to scream somewhere... Scream it all back to God.

 

From the anthology: Things with Wings, 2001 The Wild Angels


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Day Breakers - Haiku

Haiku Version

The day breakers rise 

Separating night from day 

I prefer sleep

From the anthology: Things with Wings, 2001 The Wild Angels


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Day Breakers

 

There are those who separate night from day. 

Greeting dawn with anticipation

They are golden people, light bearers of the world.

I am not one of these ...

I pull night over me, a trusted friend. I am crimson and gold

I am in the company of demons and angels drawn into the center of the dark night (of the soul.) I fall, I reel ...  Oh sweet night. .. Oh saving grace

Wild 'angels I call on thee... lift me from this wild imagining Rise, they say, child of God, greet this night,

Do not languish in your mourning bed...

Rise; lift up thine eyes from the burning dark.

Look to the swirling stars, the poetic moon, break it open ... At night, I am crimson and gold,

Embered, a soft glow in the velvet darkness

I will have my churning dreams and tormented heart

Let the day breakers have their brilliant light and Marian blue Give me this sweet night, this tender passage

Wild Angels I call on thee O' my soul,

O' my soul.


From the anthology: Things with Wings, 2001 The Wild Angels

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All the Poems

I am posting prose and poetry from the anthology series I crafted and curated with Patricia, Patrick, John, and a host of instructors along the way. For ten years I co-facilitated a successful writing program, The Wild Angels Poets and Writers group, at the historic Cathedral Church of Saint John the Divine. The program ended in May 2010 after we published our tenth anthology and final reading.

"THINGS WITH WINGS"  Anthology of their collected works Spring 2001

Edited by Patrick Hammer and Sandra Lee Schubert Cover art by Patricia Miranda

Day Breakers (Haiku Version) A death like this

What women in love do (Haiku Version)

The day I was born

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